As we learn to stop moving, we come to the realization that there is a largely unfamiliar part of us that has never and will never move at all. Re-familiarizing ourselves with this space is an amazing, often tear-filled homecoming into grace. The mystery is that we are individually and collectively each quite homesick for this place of grace, and that homesickness shows itself all of the time. Most often it happens when our individual egos experience a feeling that something is wrong, that something is somehow either lacking or too much, or of a deep anxiety about our circumstances. Sometimes we even feel excruciating psychological or physical pain. This makes us feel either a need or a compulsion to reconnect with grace. Whatever the case, if in meditation we follow these egoic senses to their origins and we constantly uncover “who,” or better yet “what,” exactly is feeling them, we will put ourselves on the Path that leads us directly into a home where we are forever able to live as an expression of grace.
In this open and timeless expanse, where we experience the openness of the Big Self, we find that there is absolutely nothing that we don’t have. There is a profound absence of need. We find that the Universe infinitely supports us at every moment. What’s more, this return to our deepest essence generates an unlimited supply of compassion, since the boundary between self and other is gone. As we begin to trust in this death of our old relationship to the ego, we begin to live out a stable consciousness of boundless love about which all of the enlightened among us have spoken, taught, and written. Here again, we aren’t compelled to kill ego, but rather we allow for our spiritual growth to expand past it. We do this spontaneously when we stop grabbing for lifelines and start realizing that we’re complete exactly as we are in our oceanic experience; we lack nothing, and we are already the goal and the destination of all we’ve ever sought. We see that we are what is doing all the seeking and that we are always right here, living full lives in our own skin, in this life. Once this happens, we’ve learned not to let our mental habits cover up or mute the deepest resonance of what we really are: a perpetually divine expression of Infinity.
